the hope that got me through, day to day, is demolished, because you, in no way want to be with me again. you, in no way, want to give me a second chance.
before you, i didn't see a future for myself, i couldn't get myself to see a likeness of myself out of school. you gave me a dream of a future, and because it was with you, it seemed logical, it seemed possible. but you've taken that away, and now I'm back to where i was, but so, so much weaker. because before you, i was independent and self sufficient. when i meet you, i trusted you, and i gave you everything my body and mind could offer, i gave it all to you. with faith in you, and in our love.
without it, what am i?
what do i have? what hope do i have?
you taught me that i was worth something. that my body was still pure, despite what happened all those years ago. and i willingly let you in. in many ways, in ways i didn't know before you. all because of the feelings you gave me, the feeling of not wanting to ever be with anyone besides you.
And i still feel that. so, so much. but you don't..?
and i don't understand.
because i thought the good out weighted the bad. I thought the love we had was invincible. and i thought you could have talked to me about it. you decided not to, and i guess I'm the one who has to suffer for that.
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