tell me

SUSPENSE
i could really live without it, i think. at least right now.. im so nervous.. im waiting for him to.. 'reboot' i guess to say. he says hes so used to being so stressed out from beign busy that not beign busy is.. idk
its weird.. but i think hes being honest, and i understand, then.
then well hang out. and well talk... about us, him, me.. i have to tell him about geb.. thatll be fun.. ugh i just hope he understands. i thinkit was just a darker point in my life.
well... this could be it..
i just hope it is.. cause collapsing in your arms.. never sounded more sweeter
dear lordy i need to sop tearing up >.<

wish me luckkkk

and sometimes i get nervous, when i see an open door

close your eyes, clear your heart
cut the cord

imagining the possibilities makes my heart race, and i dance around my room and smile to myself so big cause everything in my heart is bouncing around, cause its YOU
and im sure i shouldn't get this excited, but your slurred words sounded alot like "i love you"s and "baby" s
maybe im mistaken, but even so, you talk to me like you used to.
i wanna do the cheesy things we used to,
because hopes of wrestling matches cloud my mind.

i build my hopes on bridges made of dung, but your words so perfect, i just cant help it. im taking the chance.

goodbyes are just words

and i died a millon times

but umm we talked today and it was good.. right? i mean ok heres the points

he called me baby +2
he said he missed me +3
he told me of the dreams he had of me +3.5
he said he wished i was there, like we said to each other all the time +3.5
and he was comfortable enough to fall back asleep on the phone, and im sure thats not that big of a thing but well ya know how a mind like mine works +1

it silly, im sure.. but i love him more then anything i have ever known.
and although that adds up to 13,
i have 30 negative points agianst me.
so i guess thats why my brain still doesnt believe it. that it could happen or that it is happening..