cause when i woke up this morning i was crying, and i proceeded to cry on the way to school, during band, and calc class... and history class. (it did improve i wasn't as depressed, but i was still tearing up every few pathetic minutes). however after i had escaped over to find cata and maddie sitting outside for lunch and pour my (at this point emotionless) emotions onto them, i started to feel better as i walked upstairs for another satirical hour of econ. spencer didn't make science enjoyable, but i made it through. and by the last hour of the day, i was so numb and emotionless that nothing seemed to be able to touch me.
after the getting home, i talked to ethan and i cried many many times. but im better (at this point in time)because it at least appears that although we are taking a break, based on his decision, he isn't thinking this will be the end.
you know that feeling when you just know that everything will be ok?
yeah i wasn't feeling that for majority of the day.
but after talking to him again, i do... soooo i dont know what that means.. maybe things will be ok. i am really needing them to be.
current mood: numb and emotionless
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