its just so much better now

And so i have a sweet closure i was so desperately waiting for.
not really, i wouldn’t say desperately but i did indeed need it.
and i know i wrote that memorandum to myself, all those years ago, saying never to let you back in. i thought that meant things should never be ok between us, but that’s not what it was. i just wanted to be safe and certain that i resented you.
but i don’t.
Because even though your still that same person, and you think the same way, that wasn’t what i resented you for. it was what you did to me. and now.. how is it that i don’t care?
i really don’t know.
maybe its that ive seen so much more sting then those juvenile years... which is definitely not to undermine that occurrence. But it does put it in a different light.
Nether the less it doesn’t bother me anymore. Cause im at a different stage of life now.

and your a virgin