i have a lump in my throat

i got to see you agian today
we hung out three times over spring break and today, after you took a friend to the airport ou stayed intown to work on a project and wait for me to get off school. we hung out... kinda i mean i was complelty okay with it, im happy enough just that i an be sitting beside you.. but when time came were we could talk.. idk i couldnt explain it to you.. or why it was important..
ive come to notice that yu dont know anyhing of whats going on in my life.. idk what to do about that.. idk what to say.. i cant put anything into words.. i wanna talk about when we broke up and what it did to me, not dwell, just let you know. and how ive changed and how i never wanna go back to how it was before. i want to talk about the recent, cause you dont even know.. i wanna tell you about these dreams but im scared. idk why i just get nervous saying anything going on in my life.. it makes em terribly nervous. GOD i am so confused.
IVE BEEN SO CONFUSED FOR SO SO LONG.
and i HATE it.
i mean ughhhhhh its YOU
and i love YOU so much.. you dont even know..
its just all this uncertainty.
it scares me.
you said i love you..