theres major irony in my password

but umm story time..
you see kelseys a dumb slut. cause the other night, kelsey went over to geb's house. she got kinda drunk and had sex with him. the next day, kelsey couldnt even remember if he wore a condom or not. kelsey needs to pull her act together
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yeah. i dont know either. im in love with ethan. waiting around makes me feel even more pathetic. cause he said he would call me on Monday, he didnt. i mean im sure hes busy but couldnt he have, with extreme ease, texted me and told me that he wouldn't be able to.
but ya know, i really dont deserve his attention
the worst part. i kinda like geb, as a friend, i wanted to be his friend. i don think he does 'friends' with girls. i think he just fucks them. why the fuck did talking to him make me so happy? can we go back to that please? friends with benefits sounds amazing actually. but i got confused and thought he wanted something more. so i guess i tried to slow things down... cause if it was something more, we were moving way too fast for me. but.. it wasnt..
which im not sure if im disappointed about that.
gawd i dont know what i want from this kid.
sex? maybe
friends? yes
more then friends? no
i mean having sex with him wasnt nearly as good as having sex wih ethan. cause sex with someone u love means something. sex with someone you dont love, doesnt mean anything. GOD IM SO FUCKING PHILOSOPHICAL, RIGHT? haha
wooot
but seriously.
small print cause i dont actually want anyone to read this one :)