so were friends

and you said, may i quote you "were glad we hung out and that it was ok, we'd get the friends thing down."
those words take me higher then ive been in a while. its amusing how you get used to feeling so low.. you have to adjust to the feel of contentment.
the kissing was something of us, feelings, that im glad and terrified for. feelings, that you had been trying to change into something else. something hateful and awful, i can tell.i must say, im so glad you’ve given up on that.
i even told you i felt nervous thatd id mess up and you would get sick and bitter agian.
you told me "no worries" that you wouldn’t kick me to the curb the first time i flopped.
i can do things on your terms, if thats what you fancy. Cause I believe I’ll be able to kiss you agian someday.
And that fills my heart up so much <3






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..... FUCK.