goodbyes are just words

and i died a millon times

but umm we talked today and it was good.. right? i mean ok heres the points

he called me baby +2
he said he missed me +3
he told me of the dreams he had of me +3.5
he said he wished i was there, like we said to each other all the time +3.5
and he was comfortable enough to fall back asleep on the phone, and im sure thats not that big of a thing but well ya know how a mind like mine works +1

it silly, im sure.. but i love him more then anything i have ever known.
and although that adds up to 13,
i have 30 negative points agianst me.
so i guess thats why my brain still doesnt believe it. that it could happen or that it is happening..